Anniversaries

One year ago from tonight I was in bad shape! Gratitude. Thank you for helping me transform. Chryslis.

One Year in the Process (Again)

One more day until my anniverary! Yeay! I got my hair done red and black @ Donna’s and I even got Mia a haircut too. Nice relaxed week centered around recovery. I did my 5th Step on Monday @ my sponsors house. I am going to clean, do some scrapbooking, maybe write some of the shadowpeople’s stories. Who knows. Pat is out of town this week and I think that is good. I think perhapse we should go back to seeing if we can just enjoy eachothers company without the threat of a looming romantic involvement. Just enjoy the attraction or enchantment when it occures and not tie it into any “relationship” thing. See if we can hang in that dimension for a few months.
There is a job that I think I may apply for. So I am going to throw 3 balls up in the air.

1. Naropa
2. Outside Job
3. Bent Media in NOLA

Who know where I’ll be one year from now…

Mia’s dad is visition over Saturday night. I’m thinking of heading to Dayton to hear Philomena speak on Saturday. Adrian isn’t allowed to spend the night here (because of the rules) so we’ll just have to get a hotel anyway, so maybe we should just head down there.

Kether Beetles of Knowledge

[from Red Journal]

I will never allow complacency. I will push every revolution to Become. The Becoming. What I am, to Become, here and now. To become Light and Love & Union with the All that I am a part and apart from…and of.

(on some levels, very wise…and other…gibberish nonsense)

Old Rules Don’t Apply.

Old dog, new trick…

Uncover
Discover
Recover.

Eat Your Fear…

Counselor Oif!!!

Rock solid support build upon the shifting sands of sanity. Challenging every institution and ideal and given us a safe sanctuary to dissassemble our old machines.
Suggestions, based on compassion and experience but be careful not to inhale too deeply the fumes of the exhumed. The fetid decay of the disease and the corpse of the compulsion grow rancid in their anger as they seek the hell realm of the Hungry Ghosts.
Our chaos unfiltrates and affects the subtle bodies of all we encounter. Your compassion, mixed with the treadmill routine of recovery complacency will cause confusion.
At this point you can medicate your authentic self into a stupor. Cut the fruit from the Vine & breath no more or follow the Path of Will. The suggestion of Uncle Al is:

E X C E E D

Fourth Step done

My 4th step is done! Hallalujia!!! I’ve got an appointment to do my 5th with my sponsor on Monday.

I’m struggling with my perception that I need to do anything about Patrick’s awkward feelings.

Mia is doing well in kindergarten. We’re both doing wel in Peachtree.

I’m trying to get the SILA meeting up and running.